Wellness Healing Warrior

Boundaries & Protecting Your Peace 7/08/2019 Boundaries are something I don't have a bunch of experience with. I'm the girl that allowed anyone to say and do anything no matter if it was healthy for me. I was more concerned with keeping people in my life than I was to stand up and say "this just isn't healthy for me". I knew if I set that line in the sand most would walk away and I'd be alone. Alone is not something I was ok with in the past, I didn't think I was worth anything unless there were people around me. As I level up through life, much like a video game, I'm faced with the task of holding boundaries to keep me healthy. This means saying goodbye to those who can't honor my boundaries. Those that truly respect you won't have a problem with your boundaries but those who are simply feeding on your energy will try to turn it around. Giving excuses as to why their behavior is ok and should be accepted. They'll try to guilt you out o...

As painful as it is; it wasn't personal.. 9/06/2019 You aren't to blame for what they said and did, no matter how you cut it you are only responsible for your behavior. ​Most likely it isn't personal at all, they are just not strong enough to overcome their own traumas. In my opinion, most if not all narcissistic people are that way because they weren't strong enough to mentally overcome their hardships in life and in early childhood; unlike sociopaths and psychopaths that are more than likely born that way. When you can separate yourself from the trauma you can really start to look at it and see that everything was motivated to sustain their false image. It only becomes personal when we figure them out and fight back. When you can accept that they would have done it to anyone, not just you, it becomes easier to let go of the pain. When you can let that go, you can replace it with gratitude which will change everything about you! We must feel our feelings but make sure ...

Draw the Line; Practicing Self-Care through Boundaries 3/02/2020 Getting healthy is such a simple thing at its core yet complex in action. The core is truly loving yourself but the complexities of getting there can be daunting… Every young person should learn how to love themselves before trying to love another, before trying to conquer this world and before trying to help others. Boundaries are a huge part of loving yourself. Boundaries are how you show yourself respect. We should have boundaries for ourselves and boundaries for others. Often they overlap in areas. For example, a boundary I have for myself is zero negative self-talk. If I'm not going to let myself talk negatively to me why would I allow others to do it? So they overlap, Nobody talks negatively. I was horrible at boundaries because I didn't have any idea what they were or how to use them. I hurt a lot of people because I crossed their boundaries and I got hurt a lot because people constantly crossed mine. Witho...

Impostor Syndrome and Eviction Time! 2/10/2019 Hey guys, I know it's been a while but this journey doesn't follow a timeline. Well, this journey coupled with mental illness doesn't follow a timeline for Me. Let's talk about impostor syndrome because there have been times during this journey that I felt like a fake. I felt like eventually, it all would come Crashing Down. Bipolar has me in a bit of a different position though I was waiting for the negative parts of mania. I was waiting to swing out of this peace. With each day I grow a little more cautious because Mania is nothing to mess with. It has now been eight months since an episode. I remind myself that my sleep is nowhere near Mania because when I'm shifting I stop sleeping. I'd be lucky if I got 2 hours of sleep once transitioning into media started. I remind myself that I sleep 5 to 6 hours during the week and 8 sometimes 10 on the weekends. I remind myself that if I was faking I wouldn't wake up f...

1/03/2019 Hey Warriors, I feel like I've been gone for a really long time. The holidays had me a bit scatterbrained and took a bunch of energy to stay on the off-schedule that I was on. I want to touch on a few things I did during the holiday season, both good and bad since I'm all about transparency! ​I started off December at a good speed; we had only been on a night schedule for a couple of weeks. With the excitement of baby girl's birthday and introducing her to Elf on the Shelf, I was truly running on pure excitement.  As the days passed, I started sacrificing myself for the family. That meant I was not prioritizing 'me' time because I knew the family as a whole was already stressed not to mention each person individually.  Everyone's sleep was off which also meant our eating was off but I rationalized giving up healthy eating because I was still being aware of everything; as in my food intake and mindset. Now we are not a clean eating family, but I try to ...