Wellness Healing Warrior

The Fight of My Life Written - 12/9/2018 The trauma that dropped me to my knees and changed life as I knew it completely. I don't know I'll go through every detail of every part of the trauma just because I don't know it's necessary. If there is something that you want me to expand on or explain further please just leave me a comment and I will either create a new post or add in that section for you. To fully understand what happened, I guess it would make more sense for me to start from when I met my husband that way you see the whole picture. So here goes... I found myself in one of the hardest times of my life in September, October, and November of 2013. I called Cass homeless shelter my home. That is where I met Josh, my husband. We possessed nothing but ourselves. From the moment I encountered him, I felt safe but completely different. He never handled me like a piece of meat or the conquest he was trying to conquer. He consistently attended to me like a human bein...

As painful as it is; it wasn't personal.. 9/06/2019 You aren't to blame for what they said and did, no matter how you cut it you are only responsible for your behavior. ​Most likely it isn't personal at all, they are just not strong enough to overcome their own traumas. In my opinion, most if not all narcissistic people are that way because they weren't strong enough to mentally overcome their hardships in life and in early childhood; unlike sociopaths and psychopaths that are more than likely born that way. When you can separate yourself from the trauma you can really start to look at it and see that everything was motivated to sustain their false image. It only becomes personal when we figure them out and fight back. When you can accept that they would have done it to anyone, not just you, it becomes easier to let go of the pain. When you can let that go, you can replace it with gratitude which will change everything about you! We must feel our feelings but make sure ...

Richardson Update 2/09/2020 I'm not sure how the year got away from me but 2019 went so fast and here we are already in February 2020🤦‍♀️. If you ever doubted that your entire life can change in the span of five months. Buckle your seatbelts because I'm going to show you exactly how much life can change in five short months… First, we're living in a completely trauma free home *does happy dance*. Carving out my own space in this new community is helping me grow further. Although the comfort zone is nice, it's not where we grow and this family is all about growing into our best selves. Seraphim is doing amazing, mastering sounds left and right. So they are moving her up and she will be getting ready to start school soon. Josh is the one that has the most amazing news of these past five months. I've gotten into our story in pieces along the way, but for this to have the most impact on you guys, i have to give you a little backstory. After our trauma with Josh's b...

Complex-PTSD, Narcissistic Abuse & Recovery 6/27/2019 As I watch Josh really start the journey I started last summer, I get anxious for him.  Cutting through years of junk is hard work, it's painful and sometimes feels hopeless. We got a huge note of validation today though! We got his records from a neurologist he was seeing back in 2008/2009. We Both got to see what he's been fighting on paper. We got to see that the in-laws had a visit with his doc without him present (he was not a minor) and got to see the docs remarks and opinions of that visit. Doctors/professionals that are aware and document clear signs of abuse are the hidden heroes that nobody knows about. Narcissistic abuse is hard to recover from because it fractures who you are. You don't see the world the same so to hold not only court records but doctors records documenting the clear abuse of parental power gives the survivor a piece of their voice back. It's unimaginable that a person would be so mal...